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Saturday, 23 January 2010

Thursday, 14 January 2010


  • so b* left today. i know i whinged abit about his smell and all that but overall he was a nice boy. and a lil part of me will miss him. he came by to say goodbye and give me a hug. it was so embarrassing i got all teary and stuff. and then when he turned to leave... just that image of him walking out the door bought back that painful day when HE walked out that door at the end of it all. if im crying over b* leaving no wonder i had that major breakdown at the end.

    i really hate goodbyes.



Thursday, 07 January 2010

Tuesday, 29 December 2009

  • just got back from sending R to the airport. he's off on his grand adventure and i wouldn't be human nor honest to myself if I didn't admit i was very envious.
    it makes me look at my drab, dreary life and want more. i want the big city lights, the sea of different faces, the shops and the culture. i want to be achieving something, i want more ... i just want to get away.
    im so excited for him.


    i shall miss you R.


Monday, 28 December 2009


  • april - uni friend
    june - work friend
    november - childhood friend
    december - uni friend
    december - basketball friend


    although im not interested it has piqued my attention. the psychologist in me wants to psycho-analyse this and break it down to get to the inner core of possibilities. the cynical, spiteful side has already boiled it down to most people realising the type of person he is and not giving a shit what he thinks, grabbing the opportunity to take what he could not cherish nor see.

    its amusing at the least.
    five and counting....



    ps. the cynical, spiteful side is skipping down the cherry blossom lined path whistling to the tune of "better today - neyo". this and more is your comeuppance. be prepared.